What a joy...

For those who have been reading through my blog, they will know what is this all about.. For those who are not aware, I guess I will enlighten you a little about my developing baby.

When I was about 16 weeks pregnant, my O&G specialist - Dr Tang Boon Nee discovered a very devastating state about my baby. My little one's right kidney was enlarged (swollen) and it was so huge that the left kidney was totally invisible. We were in so much depression when we heard that news. And the worst part was when we consulted another doctor at Damansara Specialist, he told us the worst things ever and that was my baby might be developing a tumor during fetal stage. This could lead to removal of a kidney after the baby is born. Imagine what kind of trauma we went through. The baby has not fully formed and already been diagnosed with this sort of ailment.

We prayed and prayed so hard. Everyone around us helped us go through this. They gave us so much of morale support and encouragement that everything will be alright. It was rather difficult to accept any sort of encouragement at that very moment. But later on, we began to accept the baby's condition and totally surrendered to God. All the worries and anxieties flew away. We do not speak or worry about it though we knew the baby's condition was still the same. We waited patiently.......

16 long weeks passed and now I am 32 weeks pregnant. We went for our 3rd appointment with Dr.Baskaran of GH yesterday. Dr.Baskaran is the head of feto-maternal department where he only checks high risks pregnancies and problematic fetal cases. So far we've got great consultation sessions with him as he is a very positive and vibrant person. He often gives us very conclusive remarks and ensures we stay positive too.

We waited a while till the doctor called us in. I was lying down on the bed while waiting to be scanned. Dr.Baskaran walked in and started his job. There was a long gap of silence. Then finally he said, "There is no more mass in the right kidney. It looks normal." He said it with an absolute state of calmness and yet he was so firm about his statement. I felt a strong stir of joy in me. I thought of God immediately and thanked him. Little tears of joy formed in my eyes and I quickly gained control of them. I looked at my husband, Vijay and he looked equally overjoyed.

That news really made my day! All our prayers and hopes came true. I smsed all our loved ones and informed them on the good news. We owe all of them big time for all the support rendered to us in times of despair. Above all, God never let us down. It may take quite a while to see how He works His ways through, but we should not give up on Him. Whatever circumstances we face in our daily lives, we should hold on tight to HIM alone.

And to conclude, this is what Swami said:-

Sometimes you feel that disasters increase instead of diminish. Do not get agitated. Close your eyes and tell me with faith: "Thy will be done. You think of it." And when you speak thus, I accomplish a miracle when necessary. I only think of it when you trust me totally. I always think of you, but I can only help you completely when you rely fully on Me.