Being Twins - Part 1

Shamini & Shantini - Part 1 - The Fall

Being twins were always fun and thrilling! It was the best thing ever to be as kids. Simply because we were like so popular in school, and needless to say we had quite a number of "peminat" too. We used to go through everything together. We were in the same school and most of the time - classmates. But when we entered Standard 4, we got separated - due to our intelligence level.. :P Anyhow, we became classmates again in Standard 5 & 6 and got separated again during secondary. Unfortunately, God finally decided that this two devils should be very far apart from one another and He decided to get her married to a Penang guy. And there she goes....

But guess it was all for good. We used to be so close to each other that we used to.. (*censored*). The only problem was this thing where we always fell sick together. That really suck big time! Whichever part of the world my other twin is, if she is sick... That's it. I know what to expect next! But that was not just it. There were more to go. Something called "EMOTIONS". That too we share very closely. If she is not in good vibes, so will I be. If she puts on weight, I will put on some inches too. Thus, we were never so different in terms of our looks. So this has been going on all these while even till now and I guess we will play this game till the end of our lives.

One day when I was about 15, father asked me to cycle to the grocery shop nearby to get something. Back then, we were staying in Kuantan at this place called Tmn Tunas Jaya. It's kinda rare to get these kind of chances as we never had our own bicycle. That too belongs to my 3rd sis - Haanusia. So with all my might and excitement, I cycled to the shop. Ahaa.. this was a golden opportunity to show off some of my cycling skills. So i increased my gear and cycled everywhere. I know father will be waiting, but that's secondary for now. I was cycling at one of the back alleys when a disaster was about to happen. I overlooked at this one place where it was full of sand and all of sudden my bicycle skidded and the next thing I knew... I was down in the drain and the best part was the bicycle was right on top of me- in the drain too. :(

Two very kind-hearted Indian aunties rushed to my aid and got me off the drain. I had scratches all over my arms and legs, and it hurt badly. Ouch! I dare not cycle after the fall, so I jus pushed the bicycle back home. When I arrived home, I got nice nagging from my dad for being so careless. So this time, he decided to send my twin, Shantini. So heroically, Shantini left with assurance that she is gonna get back with the stuffs my dad wanted. We waited....

A while later, Shantini returned. And Guess What??!!! She fell down too!! and the worst part.... Exactly at the same place! Whoaaa.. what a twin thing... I couldn't help laughing though I know it was quite mean of me to do so. But that was so hilarious. Imagine we fell at the exact same spot and she was down the drain too! hahahaha...

We still think about moments like this and laugh out hysterically. It was really fun growing up with each other. All our mischievous acts. Stay tune for more chapters from our "Being Twins" e-journal.

Twin No.1

Truth Materializing Into Gains

Swami often says:

When you seek the Truth, you are seeking God. Truth is God. Truth exists; so too, God exists. Truth must be considered as life giving as breath itself. Just as a person with no breath in him becomes useless, life without Truth is useless and becomes a dwelling place of strife and grief. Believe that there is nothing greater than Truth; nothing more precious, nothing sweeter and nothing more lasting. Wherever Truth is followed, there lives Dharma. There is no Dharma higher than Truth. There is no morality higher than Truth. Through Truth, you can experience love; through love you can visualize Truth.

So this is it...The Truth chapter of my life. I've been trying to understand Truth since the day I know Swami. His name is His Message.. Sathya Narayana.. and being one of His flowers in His garden... I do try and strive hard to follow His principles. Truth being the first one among the Human Values (Truth, Right Conduct, Peace, Love and Non-Violence), has been constantly emphasized by Swami.

I find it rather difficult to uphold truth and practice it, as it may not be the best thing to do in this world today. Though since the age of 14, I keep hearing the same call..TRUTH, TRUTH AND TRUTH Alone.. Some people say.. Ignorance is bliss. I agreed to that and I guess it has been part of my breathe all these while. On many occasions, I bridged it. I find that lies were the ones that saved me and brought me happiness.

Till recently, a story captured my heart. About this guy who practiced truth and how it changed his life. His final statement, "If just by practicing truth for a month can bring so much of fruits, what can it do to me to the rest of my life?"

So I started. My job often requires me to travel around Klang Valley. Due to my low wedges, often I claim more than what I am supposed to. I will just add on some places which I never visited and collect parking and toll receipts even during weekends when I am not on any working assignments. This had been a continuous practice. Unfortunately, however much I claim, I never did enjoy a penny of it. Yes at times, this extra cash did help me in some emergency. But sadly, I never had enough at the end of every month. Every mid of the month, I run out of cash and at times it hurts so badly that I used to cry and breakdown. Often I asked Swami "Why me??".

Till one day, the realization kicked in... I guess Swami's answer to me is "Why not??"

.Since the beginning of July 2009, I started this journey. It was very bitter at first. I am referring to TRUTH. I had so much fear when I first started. If it's not even sufficient all these while, how will it be any better for me if I am going to just depend SOLELY on the little that I am going to earn every month? Neither did I claim extra mileages nor collect irrelevant receipts for myself. I was very strict on this practice. Back in my mind, I just told myself, it's OK if I don't get the extra every month, let Swami take care of it. He who is TRUTH Himself, will know exactly what to do if I make this little attempt

Towards the end of July 09, it was rather strange that I had extra CASH in my bank account That was indeed a surprising fact which I've never ever experienced in my entire life. I had quite a lot extra that I was able to give some to my mom and help out my husband with some errands. It's always the other way round, where he often has to lend me some cash to keep me sustaining till end of the month.

Today, I am seeing the fruit of my action. Truth hails! Halleluyah!! By His grace, I can slowly understand the drama He is playing with me. Though it may not sound very significant, but it brings a great deal of change to my life. This is my first step! A step to uplift myself in this Sadhana. I can now call myself His devotee. How could I think that way all these while? There are much more that is yet to come. This is just the beginning.

A Beginner.

Mixed Fruit Cake Mommy

I am now 26 weeks pregnant.. How do I feel now? It's totally a mixed feeling. Like a mixed fruit cake. Fear of labor pain, excitement and joy thinking of how my generation's gonna look like, nervous and so on..

However, right now I've already start feeling quickening. A process where the baby starts moving in the womb. Junior Prime Optimus has his/her pattern throughout the day. There are times where he/she is active and there are times where he/she hardly moves (perhaps taking naps in between). There are certain things, sound, smell and taste that he/she seems to be very excited about. For instance when i swallow down some ice cream of chocolates, he/she moves so vigorously. Certain days, when it rains cats and dogs with thunder and lightning, just like any other babies, little junior gets a little frightened. He/she kicks very hard as though its crying in the womb. At times like that, I will hold him/her and say m0mmy is here for you my baby... dun you worry...and a while later, the movements eases down.

The cutest part of all is the daddy. Whenever he notices my big belly, he will stop by to say hi or smooch the baby.. It is said that babies in the womb will be able to hear its parents especially by now.. The hearing should be very well developed. Every night, if I am not watching any of my favourite tv shows, I will be reading my Sanathana Sarathi loudly so that the little one gets Swami's messages right in the womb itself.

As I always tell the little one.. "You will be HIS messenger. I am just the medium carrying you as my child.. but your real parent is Swami. He presented you to me as a precious gift. Right after I wrote Him a letter, I conceived the next month itself. I will do my Dharma well by bringing you up in the way He wants it to be."

Back to the little one.. My due date is around end of Nov 09. Hope he will come out when he is supposed to and will be all super healthy.. That's more the reason why we call him Junior Prime Optimus. :) That's all what this mommy can ever wish for. As promised, I will strongly go through whatever pain it takes to get him/her out safely and healthily. God, please be with me every second of my life.

Luv,
Mixed fruit cake mommy