Truth Materializing Into Gains

Swami often says:

When you seek the Truth, you are seeking God. Truth is God. Truth exists; so too, God exists. Truth must be considered as life giving as breath itself. Just as a person with no breath in him becomes useless, life without Truth is useless and becomes a dwelling place of strife and grief. Believe that there is nothing greater than Truth; nothing more precious, nothing sweeter and nothing more lasting. Wherever Truth is followed, there lives Dharma. There is no Dharma higher than Truth. There is no morality higher than Truth. Through Truth, you can experience love; through love you can visualize Truth.

So this is it...The Truth chapter of my life. I've been trying to understand Truth since the day I know Swami. His name is His Message.. Sathya Narayana.. and being one of His flowers in His garden... I do try and strive hard to follow His principles. Truth being the first one among the Human Values (Truth, Right Conduct, Peace, Love and Non-Violence), has been constantly emphasized by Swami.

I find it rather difficult to uphold truth and practice it, as it may not be the best thing to do in this world today. Though since the age of 14, I keep hearing the same call..TRUTH, TRUTH AND TRUTH Alone.. Some people say.. Ignorance is bliss. I agreed to that and I guess it has been part of my breathe all these while. On many occasions, I bridged it. I find that lies were the ones that saved me and brought me happiness.

Till recently, a story captured my heart. About this guy who practiced truth and how it changed his life. His final statement, "If just by practicing truth for a month can bring so much of fruits, what can it do to me to the rest of my life?"

So I started. My job often requires me to travel around Klang Valley. Due to my low wedges, often I claim more than what I am supposed to. I will just add on some places which I never visited and collect parking and toll receipts even during weekends when I am not on any working assignments. This had been a continuous practice. Unfortunately, however much I claim, I never did enjoy a penny of it. Yes at times, this extra cash did help me in some emergency. But sadly, I never had enough at the end of every month. Every mid of the month, I run out of cash and at times it hurts so badly that I used to cry and breakdown. Often I asked Swami "Why me??".

Till one day, the realization kicked in... I guess Swami's answer to me is "Why not??"

.Since the beginning of July 2009, I started this journey. It was very bitter at first. I am referring to TRUTH. I had so much fear when I first started. If it's not even sufficient all these while, how will it be any better for me if I am going to just depend SOLELY on the little that I am going to earn every month? Neither did I claim extra mileages nor collect irrelevant receipts for myself. I was very strict on this practice. Back in my mind, I just told myself, it's OK if I don't get the extra every month, let Swami take care of it. He who is TRUTH Himself, will know exactly what to do if I make this little attempt

Towards the end of July 09, it was rather strange that I had extra CASH in my bank account That was indeed a surprising fact which I've never ever experienced in my entire life. I had quite a lot extra that I was able to give some to my mom and help out my husband with some errands. It's always the other way round, where he often has to lend me some cash to keep me sustaining till end of the month.

Today, I am seeing the fruit of my action. Truth hails! Halleluyah!! By His grace, I can slowly understand the drama He is playing with me. Though it may not sound very significant, but it brings a great deal of change to my life. This is my first step! A step to uplift myself in this Sadhana. I can now call myself His devotee. How could I think that way all these while? There are much more that is yet to come. This is just the beginning.

A Beginner.